Day one billion my youtooz pins still haven't shipped. I bought the youtooz cod zombies pins like forever ago even though I HATE youtooz because we get nothing and I ate it up.

Anyways I wanted to talk about my CODZ-MLP crossover AU. So, like... Maybe Twilight is a better fit for Richtofen since she's the nerd but idgaf I found a way around that. So, you know how in the elements of insanity, the mane 6 were possessed by freak fortress characters/creators? I basically stole the idea, let me explain.

I'm still figuring out exact details, but to put it simply: Twilight goes cray cray because of element 115/the aether, starts experimenting on ponies with 115(under wraps ofc), and this is what kickstarts everything. Richtofen > Pinkie Pie, Dempsey > Rainbow Dash, Takeo > Fluttershy, Nikolai > Applejack.

I LOVE MLP AND CODZ CROSSOVER.

I start school in like, a week. I'm VERY unhappy about this, I've always had a passionate hatred for school.

Ever since middle chool I've wanted nothing but to drop out and never go back. So far I've failed more than half my classes and it's very possible I'll be held back. I just want to graduate this year and never think about high school again. I don't know if I'll go to college, I'd probably fail out.

...That said, I'm going to have to get my grind on this year. Every time I say I'm locking in I turn myself into a liar but on god I'M LOCKING IN. My friend told me that the workload senior year is lighter so at least there's that, hopefully. Ugh I also need to get a job soon but I have other things to worry about (catching up to The Boys).

Fuck school I hate school.

So, until August 6th, I'd never been to a live show before! Which is horrible because music is my favorite thing ever. I saw Tallah (my favorite band!) live for my first ever live show, which was amazing!

First, some loredumping before I talk about the show, because I love Tallah and I'm very autistic. Tallah is a nu-core (nu-metalcore[metal+hardcore]) band from PA! The band was formed by Max Portnoy (dr. & ba.). The current members are Justin Bonitz (vo.), Alex Snowden (rhythm gt.), Derrick Schneider (lead gt.), Thomas Cucé (dj & key.), and Joel McDonald (dr.). Their 2 albums, Matriphagy and The Generation Of Danger, are concept albums written by Justin. Also, fun fact, even though TGOD was released after Matriphagy, the tracks on TGOD were written first. They're very good albums with cool lore, and I implore you to check them out yourself!

Anyways, onto the actual story LOL. My mom is the one who bought my ticket, as well as hers. She did it as a surprise, which kind of shocked me! At the time I was honestly a bit upset because unexpected things stress me out quite a bit, but I got over it. I ended up inviting my best friend as well, who recently moved back to my city (yay). I created a couple TGOD themed kandi bracelets, one of which I was planning on giving to Justin at the show, however I didn't even end up wearing them, which was honestly a good choice in hindsight(foreshadowing). I became incredibly anxious in the days leading to the show, and I was honestly panicking about the whole thing. I haven't left my general area to go on any sort of eventful trip since I was very young. I also have insane anxiety, as well as several other reasons why I don't really go out. I really regret not giving Justin that bracelet. Maybe next time.

Like I said before, my friend went as well. They spent the night at my house, which was very fun. We bought a shit ton of snacks wit the $35 left on my EBT card (lol), which we promptly devoured that same night. We also made cinnamon rolls. The next day, we woke up at an early time unfortunately(for me, anyways. i usually wake up at like 2pm). My outfit was pretty lackluster, my red-black striped long sleeve and pj pants. Good on me, honestly. The drive there was maybe a bit over an hour? I don't know. Doesn't matter. When we arrived at Pontiac, we stopped at a gas station before the venue. And guess what. We saw the band there. Not the whole band, but some of the band! I was freaking the fuck out, because until then the members of Tallah were like out-of-this-world mythical creatures to me, and also because that's a really weird thing to happen! We got a photo, which I'm upset about. I really hate my appearance so I hate taking photos (also it's awkward), but I knew if I didn't that I'd hate myself. So I just lose no matter what.

When we arrived. getting in the venue was super easy which I'm grateful for because if anything would have happened I'd probably end up on the news. We immediately went to the merch area, which was in a separate room across the stage room. Justin was there! I was pretty shocked to see him in real life, I didn't even process that I saw him and talked to him until the night after. I bought a sick-ass t-shirt and wore it for about half the time I was there (im still wearing it, yes im disgusting). There were 3 bands that went on before Tallah. I only remember what one of them was named, Brat. They were really cool. They incorprated remixes of popular songs into their own, which was fun. I don't know if that's just a thing they did live or if the studio recordings also have that, but it's cool either way. The band before Brat was good too, I think I remember the vocalist rapping before dishing out some crazy vocals. The band after Brat was REALLY good. I think they were from Denmark? But anyways, TALLAH!!! They were AMAZING. I went pretty hard, but I went EXTRA hard during Tallah's set. I even went in the pit, which is not something I should do for my own health but I did anyways. I remember screaming all the lyrics as loud as I could, as well as jumping around and shit. Not a good combo if you're someone who never leaves the house and the most movement you get is from walking from your bed to your computer. I thought I was gonna pass out, but I didn't! The days following were spent in bed mostly, I was mega sore.

Best day of my life but if I could redo it I would LOL. It was great. I felt like I was in my element. If you're thinking about seeing a band live, do it!!1

Yay! I've offically added the blog page! I'm excited to write here. I have a lot of ideas for different pages and I've been overwhelmed, ntm mental health stuff but I am slowly adding everything here!

I feel like my site is lacking... I mean, it is, there's like 3 entire pages that you can visit, but I feel like others have a lot more to offer in terms of content and things to look at (-_-;)... People showcasing their art and collections and what-not... It makes me feel insecure! I don't like showing my art to anyone besides my buddies and I dont really have any collections or other things I want to show off. I should honestly go through my thigns and find cool stuff to talk about! Anyways, maybe I will start adding art/edits soon.

But first, I will focus on finishing the pages I've started for this site. I have a lot of fun designing them. I will also publish some new blog posts soon!